“We
were just about to leave the village. As usual, I’d been
accompanied by several smiling guides, playfully competing over
who’d get to carry my bags up the steep hillside. It had
been all I could do to keep my camera clamped to my shoulder.
In worn, plastic sandals, they stepped nonchalantly up the narrow,
winding paths and I concentrated on emulating their sureness
by feeling every footfall on the soft, red earth and disordered,
angular rocks.
But
another part of my mind kept trying to capture all the experience
of those last two days, to hold it clear and simple so that
I wouldn’t lose this other world that I’d only just
found. But it was too much effort, too much western thinking,
and then suddenly we were at the car on the dusty road above
the sprawling village.
As
I turned for a last look at the vast world of 2000m up in the
lesser Himalaya, that’s when I saw it. The symbol that
filled my mind with the entirety of meaning that was Noon Bagla.
Next
to the ubiquitous crumbling walls of another ruined home towered
the sunflower. Out of the earth that only months earlier had
tossed away that family’s existence, a new energy had
erupted as the truth of re-emergent life. An impossibly slender
stem somehow supported a massive brightness, defying my sense
of gravity and any thoughts of permanent sorrow. As I pointed
my camera, the sunflower crowded into the viewfinder, shouting,
‘Here is what you need not understand’. And I could
leave - aware of the tragedy, grateful for the faith I had found
at that sharp edge of the world.